even if i'm a tad late.

Happy Birthday to two of my most favourite people
Chris & Gloria

it's a new year
a new decade. 
hopefully this year will be the greatest year yet.
even if it started off poorly,
let's let it reach it's climax

Because it feel's like insomnia. oh oh ohhh.

nearly a whole month sleeping at 5am
starving my ass off
feeling darkness just eating me up

to the point where my stomach is failing
and the eyebags just keep getting bigger

where's the end of my road?
because all it seems right now is rocky and neverending.
boring, simple, useless?
the things around me a beautiful and bright.
so many opportunities, so many things to do.
but why am i so sick of everything.
sick of life?

i'm not giving up.  
i'm holding on.

but why does it seem like there's no one waiting for me at the end?